Tuesday

Well today wasn't to bad, got most of me work done, get part of tomorrow off, and I'm currently listening to a nice kind of easy listening 'blogging song' as it were... The song is Black Wave by The Shins...I decided to give this Last.fm thing a try and so far its pretty cool. Basically what you do is type in an artist name (someone you like) and this place comes up with a selection of songs that sound simalar to songs that band sings..kinda like a "you like that?.?. well try this!!" sort of deal, only thing is you have to pay for certain parts of it, not sure which yet. Its only like $3.00 a month but im a bit cheap with online transactions...Moving on...I stoped to grab something to eat yesturday and a good friend was there workin. She is a pretty cute girl, not but a couple years younger than me, and has a unique and interesting personallity. I have come across the idea of askin her to hang out with me sometime, I can think of a few things to do. The thing is ive been a bit out of thouch with my charming side for quite some time. If you have read some of me previous post you may have noticed how frustrated I have been...I just dont want to screw it up again. I sure as hell am not going to ask anyone out over a network based connection again, that seems to be a really bad idea...Anyway luck be with me....

Go old times

Today I got to spend time with my friends like we used to in high school. Me, Travis, Greg, Renae, and Kailee all drove to Evansville to eat and look around. Of coarse being a Sunday there's not much to do, but we still had an interesting evening. Ate at Olive Garden, discussed relationship stuff (like always)...it would really be nice to have someone for me to share stuff like this with. I supose being single has its advantages, but one can only stand to be alone for so long before one gets too used to being by ones self...On an off note, I recently finished my very long over due project of building a spedometer for my VW Bettle. I built it using an arduino, lcd, and a reed switch assembly for a bicycle. It worked rather well for a sort of weekend project, it is accurate to about 4 miles an hour. In order to increse the accuracy I will have to add more magnets and change the math equation a bit, but I have to work once again so it may be awhile before testing again...I do plan on posting the project as well as some sample code in the future, once everything is fine tuned....

Pretty decent couple of days

In light of the new book I've been reading, Tricks of the mind, I decided to try a few of the technics presented in the book by one of my favorate entertainers Derren Brown. He shows you how to greatly improve your memory, change the way you look at things, and give you an idea of what it means to be confident and such. He also has many other stories and very intersting reading to enjoy. So far the things I've tried have worked fairly well for me. I haven't had the time to really focus on the "technics", but in time I will see their potential.  

Some at work blogging...
-Jake-

Good day

Today was a good day. It was warm enough. I ate outside in the sun. I drove the bug, people looked at me and smiled. I talked to my friend travis. Haley was at work today she was happy and smiley. Boss still bein craby, I heard a joke about a hand held banana and a blue and brown bowl...

Friday The Thirteenth...

One of the most superstitious of days out of the year. So apparently "Friday the 13th" is the rare day that everything goes wrong or bad things happen. I didn't have much of a bad day really, although I did notice a few things that were a bit odd. Like on my way to work I counted about 15 dead animals spread out like "pancakes" all over the highway. birds, squires, chipmunks, groundhogs, a deer....monkey, giraffe, and a homeless man...OK not the last few but a wide variety of critters spread out over about a 12 mile stretch, pretty creepy. other than that it was a pretty nice day, not many clouds, warming up outside, and not very many ignorant or irrational customers came into the shop. as for my last post I have "recovered" so to speak, a very good friend and I had a talk and I felt better after that....I guess everyone has s#itty spells every once in a while, when life starts getting stressful and overwhelming, you just need to talk to someone to get it out there and off your metaphorical chest, and encourage you to Think good things....It is quite difficult to talk to people when I feel that way, I feel much better when I do speak my mind though.(respectfully of course) :]

Cabin Fever?

So its been getting pretty crappy for me over the last few days, my friends won't hang out with me anymore nor make any sort of attempt to contact me. I sit at my job starring at my computer screen thinking about how I could somehow meet a decent girl in this $#itty town, everyday I see couples and hear this depressing bull on the radio, all love songs and relationship stuff, tv always has couples on every channel, the internet has ads about it, my computer has popups every time I boot it with at least 1 picture and 1 story about some relationship, I'm really getting f#cking tired of it. My job pisses me off at some point everyday, being single and alone for the last 6 years is making me sick I've never kissed a girl in my life and I'm 19! last time I had a girlfriend I was in the 7th grade. I hate stupid drivers, the weather, and never having time to do anything. I am financially stable, in good health, and in good living conditions, but I have no one to love or hug or share anything with. I feel isolated, alone, and cheated. I have been nice to everyone my whole life and have little to nothing to show for it. What am I supposed to do? if I dont find Someone soon, I think im gonna have a nervous breakdown...human beings must have some form of deep or trustworthy interaction with others, I have trouble trusting people anymore, its starting to really bug me when I see couples......I dont know........

Here I am again

Been a while since me last post thought id write one, since I cant seem to will myself to sleep...So after a couple months of miserably cold weather it finally decided to snow and leave some on the ground. I kinda noticed the difference between kids and adults is the willingness to stand to be in very cold weather, with numb hands and feet, to "play" in this stuff. I remember praying for it to snow (mostly so I wouldn't have to go to school) when I was younger and playing in it all afternoon, but I dont seem to want to do that so much anymore. With the stress of work and life and so on I just feel too tired....however just after it got dark I was a bit thirsty, and decided to head down to the garage to get me a beverage, I got me comfy jacket, gloves, and some shoes on and headed outside. On the way back from me garage I remembered a part of why I used to love snow...I stood there on the dark side of the garage looking across the wide open field out over the lake, lit up by the moon, and it wasn't but a little bit windy. I can see all of this snow falling,in contrast to darkness, and no matter how hard its falling its always really quite. like everything is moving but I have stopped, everything is coated in a white blanket and it feels like im in some other world, like nothing really matters, like the world is standing still in some way, for me to just look around for a few minutes...I guess that's what it feels like to be a kid. When life just stands still for a few minutes and gives you time to look at the things you see everyday but don't think much about till now.